2009 is about to come to a close and let me tell you, this year has been up and down for me personally, the death of my girl friend the ups and downs with Valkyrie, moving and the progression of friends on twitter. So many new names now and so many people to call friends. Also this will mark year 3 that i havent talk to my best friend of 25+ years and i believe its turning out to be a evolution for me. The lonely nights are becoming less and work is actually keeping me sane. My biggest move in at the end of the year has to be moving back in with my ex....
The Ex
When i was getting fed up with my mom for living there that is, i needed to move on and get ahold of my life, yes i thank her for giving me shelter when i moved back to California but i know i over stayed my welcome. I needed to move out before things got worst in the aspect of my moms relationship with her boyfriend. She was stressing out about me and it was effecting them. So not prepared to move out yet my Ex out of the blue offered for me to stay.... NOW... many people finds this wierd but it was a option that was good at the moment and besides, I get to see my kids and wake up with my kids. that was a major plus but you ask what about your ex and you.... Well we have gotten past our differences and worked out that yes we love each other but not in the way we did when we married. We have children together and need to raise them, show them role models and guide them, well i like to think anyways. I am sure she is on the same boat. This move is only temporary, till i get my tax return then its off to start my new life by myself and alone. My ex and I get along, she likes that there is an adult around to talk to and she can go out without getting a baby sitter, yes she kinda has a boyfriend and im happy she has moved on. The one thing that i dread looking forward to is leaving here again, my kids will be devestated and i am not sure this will be a good thing.....
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