Hmmm so Valkyrie popped in my head again. I still talk to her on occasions and her relationship with her "best friend" seems to be going strong. Just makes me wonder the what ifs and so close moments to seeing her, yet I hold back still. Well now maybe cuz I don't have a car at the moment hmmmm ya that's it. I'm not sure why I give excuses for her but they are their. Every since Porscha asked me why I'm still single, it makes me wonder why. It's by choice I'm thinking. So many missed opportunities and yet I'm still here single. Maybe I'm afraid of commitment maybe I'm still recovering from my failed past or maybe I'm still looking for myself. I can come up with so many excuses yet I'm still here thinking of the past. Why..... I really need to move on and make the best of it. Valkyrie is my friend and that's all it will ever be. Yes at one time she was the one I wanted to be with, to hold, and to be intimate with. Yet for some shy reason I stayed away. Uggg.... I will continue to go merry way of flirtatious comments hide behind my computer and be content. Que sera sera.......
The bike ride this morning went good I made it in 26ish min. I was running late so I jammed down there as fast as I could. I did rest some spots but if I can keep a good pace I'm sure I can make I to 20mins. As for the ride last night it was ok the wind was blowing but I managed to keep going. Took me like 40 mins. Hmmm.
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