ummmm dog???

Who in their right mind doesnt care for Disneyland?? well in my journies thru life i have met such people... My coworker said she hasnt seen many movies and well only been to Disneyland once and hated it, now her kids who are older love disneyland and to my thinking love it because they were sheltered as a child because the parental unit didnt expose it to them. Over the weekend i came across another person, but this time experienced it first hand. A friend of mine from the past, I will call her G-girl....

So she called me up and we did the formal hellos and rememberences of the past and well it came down to she asking me to goto Disneyland with her. she got some tickets to the happiest place on earth and since she never have been, thought it would be fun to take me. We dated a little bit in college but went our separate ways when life started to happen. With pop culture the way it is and the strangle hold that disney has on our children wasnt enough, here stood in front of me a person that had no idea of who Ariel was or what neverland represents...

Me... well i am a kid at heart, I like going to disneyland... and everyone I have ever taken loved it too.... But G-girl..... this was interesting.

Bad Medicine..... is what i need....

So today apon texting C today, i thought it would be crazy to actually call her and hear her voice... I met C online last may asking about some recipe and surprisingly she was kind enough to reply. This started a long inquisition of questions and flirting... harmless at first but then it developed into a really close friendship... I think its possible to have really good online friends and relationships. C was really cool about it, she accepted my cheesy flirts and i accepted her hotness and creative mind. Anyways its been a fun ride getting to know her we kinda compliment each other well in the areas we are missing.... I fill a hole in her life and she fills that missing friend i need... Thou I could easily fall for someone like that she keeps stern to her line drawn but dabbles her flirty nature to soothe any thoughts heheh. It works well for both of us. So after 8 months of just twittering and texting i finally grew the balls and called her, i tease myself as being shy and well...... its true. Had so many cheesy lines and things i could say and BAM i choke.... WHY is that??? she seemed to be nervous to. was it the spider on the dashboard that put us in a blank stare? why were we like deer staring at headlights of an on coming car.... Worried??? cautious??? who knew...

Its interesting to me the whole process of becoming a good friend or a great friend or even a Best friend... why do we have to have competitions for this title? but then there friends in different categories and friends that are stand ins till yur reall bff comes around.... I guess we will never know but I know the friends title rotates when it isnt kept up to a common standard. If it isnt maintained then things fade.... I think C has showed me that friends has to have common interests to make it exciting and fun to continue. C has also relieved me of my semi loneliness, I look forward to chatting with her and Its weird the random things that we talk about.

Enough of the EMO rant....

Those were the best days of my life... nice song to end this blog entry hahaha

Pure flavor and awesome POP!!!

What am i doing????? i have a couple friends that i text every now and then... but there are some that really get into it... in ways that ummm ya... Its fun to a point, yes things get heated but then it gets frustrating, exchanging words and pictures is fun and very inciting, but at what cost. Tattoo girl has been an interesting person to step in my life. Met her on the bus with idle chit chat, then out of the blue she was intimate. It was a fun relationship but to short to develop into anything longterm. According to her she was just here visiting family and moved back to the east coast last month. Which brings me to what happened. Having a physical relationship was fun and almost something I want to have or find again. A non committal fun... is that even possible without a heartgiving situation... I think it was. Friends with benefits work if both people are in the same mind set, once someone starts to have feelings it could go either way. Mostly to the bad side. Tattoo girl had no intention of keeping me around but i didnt have enough time to even fall for her. It was wham bam thank you I'll call you later bye bye.... Yes the sex was amazing and the conversations were short, is that healthy? I seem to be ok with that. there are some people i would like to experience with NSA but who knows where that will go or if it will ever be.

Now with these others that want to have this with me... I wonder if its long term or not. What do I want??? I am still uncertain to what that is.... in the mean time i just go with the flow and make everyone happy that comes around. I dont often come across this but when its presented.... would you??

I'd Die for you...

Its funny how the music that pops up in everyday life reminds you of certain people, the lyrics, the music, the sounds and movements. All very memorable of times past present or future. One of my closest and dears friends texted me for the first time the other day telling me to look up a song that maybe was for me or not but given the circumstances the title was appropriate for our current conversations. The Pony by Genuwine turned out to be a really sexually charges song... I liked it and instantly thought of her in many ways, but also funny cuz it fit what were have been chatting about. Yes its been awhile again that i have written here and yes there is someone new that has entered my circle of friends... yes C has played a pivotal part in my recovery to life, its amazes me the things people do or say to cheer me up or even just have a simple conversation about mundane life... I may hove found a special friend to say hi to or even talk about kids to.. My roommate has been distancing herself as of late, I am not sure if she is just sick of me or she is having problems with her life. Adult interaction as come down to internet friends since phone reception here sucks ass.

C has been amazing, I am not sure the last time i just sat and chatted with someone till the end of the day about random stuff, but i plan on meeting her someday.

Valkyrie I think is out of the picture for now, random texts and calls here and there... maybe for the better'