What have I become... I'm so into this girl and I haven't even met her yet... I love her for the way she makes me smile and feel... I love her for the many things that she is... But.I'm sitting here waiting for her to call me and its 1am... How late do I stay up. I know she's had a rough day. After finding out the news she found out I'm concerned on how she feels ... We aren't even a couple or nothing but I feel so connected to her... Am I crazy?? Ugggh. Maybe I am for staying up so late... Maybe I am setting myself up for disappointment... I want this to work but I think she's afraid and or doesn't want to... I know she thinks about it, but I don't know.... I lost... I fell for her hard and now I'm just a blabbering idiot over this.... She asked me not to get close but I.did. but the things we do and talk about... Makes me wonder what really is happening in that head... It seems all good. I guess time will tell... I am suppose to see her soon, new years weekend.. we talk about being excited and being epic... I have no doubt about that....
