I really need to write in here more.... I have been neglecting it. Well today I drew a pic of Nikki for my day 11 drawing challenge.... so many memories have filled my head. the times we traveled across country, the many road trips out to Arizona, the late night visits to Santa Barbara. the long nights of talking. She was amazing. I miss her so much.... I remember to this day she always told me to go for it... don't let anything stop you in your quest for happiness....
Then I think of Valkyrie... a girl that i have been swooning over for a long time. Finally last year I got to hang out with her and it was amazing.... I was beyond happy, I haven't been that happy for a long time. Things were said, things were done.... but now... am i going mad just wondering what i can do to make this happen again? Am i going crazy that it could happen again? Maybe I am insane thinking that it will happen again. Just imagining her in my arms... her body against mine... her curves... her wanting to be with me.... holding hands... hanging out... complimenting me.... what did I do wrong? was I used for what she wanted? I don't think so. Just the past came up and stepped between us. Do I have another chance? maybe... I want another chance... I haven't felt this way for a person in a long time. It still dominates my mind.... even with current going ons... I still think about Valkyrie.
The Smiths: I know it's over
