Smile like you mean it....

I havent written here in forever and I think its time.... As long as i remember this blog feature an certain individual that has caught my eye in many occasions.... and yet to this day she is still swooning me over. A couple years ago we finally met in person and omg... it was amazing!!! but since then its had the ups and downs that sometimes drives me batty. And that batty situation is now.  I just dont understand what she is doing... is that what I am suppose to do?? second guess her motives??