Carabooooo

I sit in in bed wondering what she is thinking. What she is doing. I catch myself in thought about her recently. Am I becoming obsessive? Trying to obtain something I can't have. Trying to get something I had at one time and now gone? I am probably wasting my time. But each time I talk to her there is a renewed vigor.  Why do I go back to her? What is it about her that continues my curiosity?