Smile like you mean it....

I havent written here in forever and I think its time.... As long as i remember this blog feature an certain individual that has caught my eye in many occasions.... and yet to this day she is still swooning me over. A couple years ago we finally met in person and omg... it was amazing!!! but since then its had the ups and downs that sometimes drives me batty. And that batty situation is now.  I just dont understand what she is doing... is that what I am suppose to do?? second guess her motives??

I know it's over....

I really need to write in here more.... I have been neglecting it. Well today I drew a pic of Nikki for my day 11 drawing challenge.... so many memories have filled my head. the times we traveled across country, the many road trips out to Arizona, the late night visits to Santa Barbara. the long nights of talking. She was amazing. I miss her so much.... I remember to this day she always told me to go for it... don't let anything stop you in your quest for happiness....

Then I think of Valkyrie... a girl that i have been swooning over for a long time. Finally last year I got to hang out with her and it was amazing.... I was beyond happy, I haven't been that happy for a long time. Things were said, things were done.... but now... am i going mad just wondering what i can do to make this happen again? Am i going crazy that it could happen again? Maybe I am insane thinking that it will happen again. Just imagining her in my arms... her body against mine... her curves... her wanting to be with me.... holding hands... hanging out... complimenting me.... what did I do wrong? was I used for what she wanted? I don't think so. Just the past came up and stepped between us.  Do I have another chance? maybe... I want another chance... I haven't felt this way for a person in a long time. It still dominates my mind.... even with current going ons...  I still think about Valkyrie.




The Smiths: I know it's over

2013

So i sit here at starbucks drinking my Lime cooler, recalling the events from last year, I havent been on this blog in a long time and i think its time to get back to it....

Last year i met up with so many people. Writer girl started off the year with an awesome bang, we rang in the new year and made so much things happen.... yet a month after that we went our seperate ways... why??? cuz she didnt want to be held down by me and I wasnt what she was looking for... its fine i guess. We are still friends and talk seldomly...

Then Valkyrie came back into the picture. A lady that I have been chasing for awhile now... we met up for my reunion and OMG.... the most memorable experience in my life. then her ex bf came back into the picture.... ya....

Then I met up with Playmate. out of the blue she texted me and said she wanted to meet up. Now playmate was a girl i dated back in college and then dissapperared till about a couple years ago when we connected on Facebook... we met up at the local starbucks and wow.... RAWR!!!

then came Photo chick.... ya.... we did things that wasnt suppose to happen but we enjoyed it... she is a really good friend now but still.... if the timing wasnt off.... things couldve been awesome....

I went to Hawaii for new years with Karen... and that turned out to be actually fun. Her past is still a thorn in my side but it was fun to go.

Then theres Corgigirl. I met her on Tumblr at the begining of the year and have remained friends all year... she is amazing and fun. I am sure i will see her sometime this year

...... ya it will be interesting to see whats up this year