Sitting here on the bus recollecting my day... not only does work suck do to idiot people but my impatience might get the best of me... its to early to do any thing but it might be to late to make anything work... maybe I over analyse stuff or want things to work. But once I attain my goal... then what.. that's where the work begins... keeping the relationship strong and not boring is work on both parts... with c it has been fun everyday. We amuse each other with daily quirks and problems of random things. That's a healthy relationship in my eyes. With valkyrie we chat and text and laugh.. but I know her heart is set somewhere else. Maybe one day but till then its work in progress. I do enjoy being her friend and am honored that she has opened up so much already. I'm not sure where I'm going with this... I do know where I like to be bit getting there is the challenge. We have been talking more than we have been and feelings have been shared but its to early for anything to go on... or it just could be me.
Next week I move out of my home for the second time... I over stayed my welcome and its time to move on... this will be my first place alone and I'm kinda scared... I won't have the kids as much and being alone might bring out my depression.. I'm already getting anxiety just thinking about it... I have thought of stuff to do in the meantime but who knows...
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