The thing about expressing what you think online is that there will always be a critic or someone that doesnt like to read what you have to say... yet i continue writing. Constructive criticism?? maybe... am i glutton for punishment... probably... These past couple days have been a whirlwind... and now i am a victim of my own fault. Why was i so stupid in relaying my feelings? I shouldve kept them hidden like any normal person would do... You see a crush and just fantasize about them on yur own with no interaction... but no. Now i have lost a really good friend and possibly created an enemy unintentionally. But problems existed before me... where is the line?? whatever the case maybe, moving on is probably the best choice.... but i cant. And i wont. She asked me to stay and help her... not be in a relationship, not have sex, not carry her family. Just to help her get thru her ups and downs of life. As a friend i will be there. as far as anything else... no. as it has always been...
in other news Farmers market gal showed up out of the blue and helped me take my mind off things, it was an interesting night to say the least. I may have to repay the favor soon.
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